When It Pours, It...

On Friday I posted asking if anyone could finish the line... When it pours, it... well I didn't get back here until today because of a very busy weekend.

The answer is, when it pours, it FLOODS!! yep! We woke up at 1:15 AM to a flooded bedroom. There was about a inch and half of water in my bedroom. GREAT!! I know. It was cold dirty water too. Thank goodness we have no flooring down in our room yet, otherwise that would have sucked even more. We vacuumed and swept and ran fans till about 3:15 AM or so... then finally went back to bed, having the majority of the water cleaned up. Bryan had to rig up some things outside to keep the water from pooling up again so it wouldn't run into the house.

It was literally running inside our house... you could hear it coming in like a faucet was on. It sucked.

We don't have our entire bedroom finished, as far as insulation and sheetrock goes because we are waiting for the foundation to be fixed to make sure we don't do the work then have leaks and have to rip out all the work. We have 1/2 of it done, just so that we could get out bed out of the playroom so we could organize that some and put up our tree. Thursday night was the first night we slept in our bedroom. I'm glad we did sleep down there otherwise we wouldn't have had a clue about the water till the morning when Bryan would have been going to work and by then a LOT of things would have been totally ruined.

I had all the kids Christmas presents in the walk-in closet we have and wrapping paper and stuff... it got a little wet, but thankfully it wasn't ruined. The wrapping paper is a little warped but it is okay to use still. We had boxes of stuff, still because we haven't been able to put it all away because the house isn't all set up yet, and they got wet, so I spent a lot of time on Friday moving stuff around, vacuuming more water up, running the fan more, and trying to clean up all the mess. It wasn't really that bad of a job, but to be completely honest I'm so tired of moving the same things over and over and OVER!!

Thankfully I think we are getting all our problems solved with the foundation because the contractor, David, was there Sunday to start the work and today the guy is there to do the back-hoe work so they can do the entire thing today... or at least the majority of it. Yay!!

We are making progress every day it seems with the house, but for a while we would make progress with one thing and then something else would go wrong, but for now it seems like we are on a winning streak... well after the flood that is.

I just have to remember to just take one step at a time and it should all come together. I remember when I was anxious to get into the house to see it... then to try to buy it... then to move in... and that all happened... it just took some time... as does anything... so this too will work out... in time.

Ramblings

good morning.

Thank you all for the wonderful wishes for the house. We talked to our realtor yesterday and she has only been able to get in contact with the wife and proposed the deal to her, renting with option to buy, then two years buying it for the full asking price... which no one ever really offers full asking price for the first offer. But she hasn't been able to get in contact with the husband. She said they travel in separate circuits, not sure exactly how this work but we are just hoping she will be able to get in touch with him soon. We are on pins & needles and not sleeping well trying to wait this out. Not to mention all the plans and ideas that are circulating in our thoughts, although we are trying to not get too far ahead of ourselves.

they say all good things come to those that wait. right? that is how i'm trying to see this situation we talked to Sig about the house then had to wait about a week to see it... we liked it. then we made the offer and are waiting for her to propose it to the owners and i'm hoping since we have waited 3 days so far, with out knowing when we will hear from any of them, that this will have a good outcome.

for some reason i have really wonderful luck with things that i want working out in my favor. it is unreal. something always changes or bends or just goes exactly right in the universe so that things work out for me. i'm really thankful for this and hope that it will be the same way with this house. BUT at the same time things don't always go the way i want or plan or even calculate... and although it is sometimes set back and disappointing, to say the least, it is always for a reason. Some of the most major things in my life that have failed seem to have been for the BEST reasoning and made up more significant parts of my life. things and people that i couldn't imagine being absent in my life.

so although i'm trying to play it cool and think positively... i'm still dying to hear from Sig and see what the owners think of our proposal. as soon as i'm done either celebrating or being disappointed and trying to come up with another proposal for them, since we were approved for the mortgage and could still go that route, i will come post about it so you all can know what is going on.


ALSO!! Thank you all for the camera info. It seems as though my camera is really truly passed on. :( sad i know. i'm trying not to fret about it... and i'm also trying not to think of all the pictures i'm missing every. single. day.

ugh!!

i'm not sure what to do yet. i'm not sure where to shop first. i did some research with lead me to the Canon Rebel XSi... but wow!! that is pretty pricey and right now my finances need to be focused in other directions... a LOT of other directions. so i con't to search and see what you are all using. :) thanks for all the advice.

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Cursing overload happening in my head today!! Damn has it been a hard freakin' morning!! UH! It didn't start off too bad, but it started earlier than it really needed to, or I had wanted it to!! I was up off and on all night long, for whatever reason. Then I was up at 6:40 AM something, hearing Zoe complain... then I was up a little after 7 AM then I was and out of bed around 7:30 AM. I did a few things around the house and talked to my mom, we were carpooling to go grocery shopping. (aka, our truck is too much of a gas guzzler to drive to PA to shop). Plans flip flopped a little bit with that, but it ended up okay. We had a nice time. I took Brooke last week so this week I took Lauren, and the next time we go I'll take Trevor. Trying to give them all some one on one time. Although Brooke takes me leaving her the hardest!! She has to ask me a million times if I'm coming back! Haven't I always? I ask her. It breaks my heart, but Bryan tells me she is fine the entire time I'm gone. (thankfully)
I got home and was feeling a little bit drained and tired... and that is when all hell broke loose... and I mean ALL of HELL!! Uh! Brooke was fussing and crying and screaming and being a whingy little turd, and Lauren was being okay... but not really listening too well... but still okay. Trevor was being LOUD and aggressive and crazy and LOUD and AGGRESSIVE and NOT listening AT ALL!! UHHHHHH!! I had enough!! I have been having enough. I have enough that even if they NEVER act like that again I will have enough!!
For whatever reason I have ZERO patients lately!! I mean the minute the shit starts, I just loose it. I feel so frustrated and anxious inside... I get an instant headache, I start yelling and threatening them, I just can NOT handle this kind of loud, ridiculous, chaos, crying, whining, bullying SHIT!!! I CANNOT!! And I tell them all this... and they just don't give a flying fuck... or really what I think in my rational mind is that they are too little to get it!! They just don't understand that Mommy is loosing her shit and going off the freakin' deep end QUICK!!! I don't really expect them to understand... I mean really... they are 4 and 2... they shouldn't have to understand... they shouldn't have to deal with it all. I have to try to get it. I have to try to understand what is making me FLIP the fuck out and get it under control. It is almost like constant 24/7 PMSing... that I have little to no control over. Like I have some outrageous hormone surge that is making me not be able to deal with ANY, none what-so-ever stress or chaos or craziness at all. I am reallying hating this about myself lately!!
I want to restore peace and happiness to my home. I want to have nice conversations with my children and speak to them and have them reply and/or listen to me, without having to say it 4 times and then shouting at them. I want to have order and enjoy them again. Of course, I love them to pieces, but it has been hell here for the last few weeks. Something has to give. I know it is ME!! I know they are only kids, and I know they are reacting from my stress and my level of tolerance, and how I react to them, and the situations happening around us... I know that I'm the main problem. I have to work on this.
I think I'm going to maybe make a behavioral/chore chart for my son... and also for ME! ha!! I want to make sure that I'm on my best behavior and doing what I'm supposed to be doing as well. Lead by example!!

Plus, I'm really disappointed b/c I did good all last night and today with not cursing and then just blew it when they were all screaming and being crazy and fighting w/ each other.. and I'm making excuses now... but anyway... I blew it. There was no reason at all to curse, and I did. I was pissed off, and annoyed, but NO reason to curse. So here I go again... starting over with NO cursing!!

Wish me luck... I need it. :)
~frustrated (mostly with myself) Mom of 3!