TGIF

Thank God It's Friday!

I have typed this post over and over at least 4 times now. I just can't seem to get it right. I always just sit here and sort of type away... thinking but not using all my brain power. Just sort of rambling on the keyboard and having it spill out into a half-assed post.

Not that I need this post to be something meaningful and spiritual or anything like that.. but just something that is worth reading and that maybe I, myself, wouldn't mind coming back and reading at some point down the road.

I love blogging. It's a release and very relaxing for me. I can be me, I can vent, ramble and get things off my mind and chest. And almost all of the time, in not all the time, I get positive feedback, love and support. No one is judging me here. There is no crap, no drama... everyone is friends. I wish my life could operate this smoothly.

So I'd like to be better at writing on this blog. Make my posts more organized and interesting. Just I'm not sure how to do this... so if anyone has any suggestions please feel free to share. I'd love to have some different ideas on how to make my writing better. (thanks in advance!)

*back to the original scheduled post*

Friday? How did that happen? I'm happy it is Friday but at the same time, I'm not sure how we got here already. Time is running away from me. I think it is because I have a lot on my plate right now and it all has a deadline on it having to be done.

Of course, the biggest serving on my plate is a triple heaping pile of steamy NEEDS-TO-BE-DONE-&-NEEDS-TO-BE-PERFECT-CHRISTMAS. This year they are all into it. They all "get it" they all ~*BELIEVE*~ in Santa... this is a magical year. I can't afford to not make it perfect... but at the same time I'm struggling to afford to make it Over The Top perfect ~ best Christmas ever! I have to find balance. They are 5 and 3, they will be excited no matter what. They will LOVE what Santa is going to bring them. I think this is just me, that is thinking there needs to be more and bigger and more and better stuff.

On the side of the heaping of CHRISTMAS is the dreaded HOUSE!! The big bite that I took that is getting to be a little too much to chew... yeah. that one.
They haven't started our foundation yet... it was supposed to be started LAST Tuesday. They forgot to mail the check to the contractor... oops! (I don't buy it, but whatever!) He hasn't started YET!

Bryan is working on our bedroom downstairs, just half of it so we can at least put our bed, nightstands and some boxes down there and get them out of the playroom. We will probably finish the other half and the WI closet after the new year. This Saturday, in fact, you will be able to find Heather and I knee deep in primer... everything should be dry and ready for a first coat. yay!! (thank God for Heather and her LOVE of painting... I really do love that girl!)

Bryan and Chris have also been working on The Man Cave aka the bar area and a bar for in it. They have big hopes, dreams and aspirations for their Man Cave... some aren't even close to reality.. but we let them dream, plan and play. It keeps them from annoying us for a little while. Plus we are having out Third Annual New Year Eve Bash!! So to have the bar area finished or at least partially done so we can use it will be cool. I'm not sure how much they are going to be able to get done in there, but we'll see.

Along with Christmas for the kids is all the decorating of the house. My living room is pretty decked out... but once our bed and stuff is out of the playroom I will have to get a move on cleaning and organizing in there to decorate and put the tree up. We are going Sunday on an annual family trip with Bryan's side of the family to get our Christmas tree. (I'm not looking forward to this too much... I'm expecting LOTS of drama... and I'm soooo NOT in the mood for any more drama!)

Well speaking of heaping loads of stuff on my plate... one of my little heapings is here crying and whining at me LOUDLY... she is just full of drama and upset today. Her heap on my plate is covered in whine, tears, fits, laying on the floor and occasionally yelling. Isn't it great to have TWO three year olds to be able to enjoy this in STEREO?? Why yes!! Yes it is... that way I'm sure to not miss one single solitary minute of crying, whining, fussing, foot stomping, fit throwing, temper tantrum having, begging, pleading, squealing, screaming, yelling, laughing, singing, talking, giggling and all that. Some of it I really enjoy... the other 75% of stuff I could totally live without and would be fine. Maybe I should explain this to my girls... that they could knock off all the girly drama crap and I would be able to go on with life just fine. Hmm... I might have to try this.

Well I should really get up off the computer, do what I gotta do and get it done so I can pick Trevor up early from school. I have to get them all ready to go the doctors for the HIGHLY ANTICIPATED Shot Day!! ~ BTW Trevor was fussing at me yesterday about "Why do I have to wait till tomorrow to get my shot?? Why can't I just get it today?" I asked if he was nervous for it and just wanted to get it out of the way or something... and he said "No. I'm not nervous at all, I just want it so that I can be healthy. It only hurts for a second, why would I be nervous?"

Some of you yesterday were shocked by my children's reactions to wanting to get shots... and honestly I'm not sure how we did it... but they are all really good about it. Trevor is the BEST, he sits there and takes it like a champ... always has, since he was old enough to understand what was going on. The girls are getting way better with it, but are still little so they may not totally get it... but they are anxious just the same. We DO NOT buy them toys or reward them for being good about getting shots. We DO NOT torture them with nail guns or other horrid things so they are used to pain. We DO NOT talk about it like it is bad either though... we make it like is sort of good thing... after all it is to keep them healthy so it is a good thing... and we are just very honest with them... when they have to get shots, we just tell them straight up that at their appointment they are going to get a shot and that it will pinch/hurt for a second, but they will be fine.

I'll let you all know how we actually make out tonight... they are all getting flu shots. Then next Tuesday the girls are getting three year old shots. By then the memory of today will still be fresh so we'll see how excited they are to get shots then.

Well I have procrastinated to my maximum limit today so I should be going. I'm sure I'll be back since procrastinating is my Thing and I have a lot to do and a time limit on getting it done. Yep, that's how I roll. ;)

Things to Remember...

Brooke & Lauren love to refer to each other as "my sister" when talking to anyone, except each other.

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Trevor doesn't care if I go to the store with out him, while he is in school, because he knows I'm really busy and have to things without him sometimes. (his words) AND if I bring him home Skittles. :)

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Trevor ~ "Kids at school and in my class don't all dress fancy, they just dress the best they can."

Mommy ~ "What makes you say that honey?"

Trevor ~ "Because I have a lot of clothes and some of the kids in my class don't. But that is okay.

Hey, maybe I can give them some of my clothes."

Mommy ~"That is so nice of you. You are such a good boy to want to share what you have with

your friends."

Trevor ~ "oh. they aren't my friends. they are only in my class so I have to talk to everyone."

Mommy ~ "oh. okay." :)

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Lauren ~ "mommy when are you getting your voice back?"

Mommy ~ "I'm not sure honey. But I hope soon."

Brooke ~ "well who took your voice?"

Mommy ~ "no one took it honey it is just gone for now."

Lauren ~ "well you shouldn't loose it Mommy."

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While packing the kids are sort of understanding about things going into boxes, "just for now" to go to the new house... but today the girls are asking me when we are going to bring the boxes back home. I'm not sure they totally get the moving thing just yet.

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Trevor thinks we are going to always have two houses. Wouldn't that be nice?? Well, as long as I don't have to keep moving things back and forth and also don't have to clean both. ;)

that is all for now.

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since every day I feel like I'm loosing more and more of my mind and mostly my memory I want to try to post about little things the kids do and say so I won't forget.

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OH!! speaking of that... there is more...

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Lauren has been singing up a storm... and the other day she was singing a song that went like this...

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F U love your mom.

F U love your dad.

F U love your mom and dad.

F U you love your sister.

F U love your brother.

F U love your mom.

F U love your dad.

F U love your mom and dad.

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and so on.

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at first I wasn't quite sure I was hearing her correctly but she kept singing away and sure enough that is what it was sounding like. Although she was really meaning IF you love.... pretty funny!!

Gotta Love Em'!

Yeah... so ya'll remember that lovely post from yesterday?? "The Best". Yeah that's the one where I posted the BEST quote ever!! It was from my little boy! It was sweet and over flowing with pure love for his momma!!



Here it is if you can't remember....

*and here is the BEST quote ever!* I love you always. Every minute. Every day. Every night. Always. I love you to the moon and back, and even when you are being mean yelling. I love you because it is for your own safety.

It touched my heart deep inside, choked me up and made me teary eyed. And, from my comments, it did the same for some of you too. It was so loving, mushy gushy and sweet. :)

Well this morning my lovely little spawn child yelled this lovely sentiment at me, which will be a remembered quote as well, but I'm not sure it will fall into the same category as THE BEST... well here it is and you can judge for yourself where we should place this "quote"

The scene...

Trevor is begging me to stay home from school, I am telling him what an awesome day he will have and that he is going. He is still begging and pleading with me. He got extra time at home because I was driving him in to school. He got to play the Wii and play with a new toy he got, and just hang out before even getting ready for school. Plus today is Movie Day in school, and they are having Shamrock Shakes in his class. :) What kid wouldn't want to go?? Mine!! Duh!! Aren't ya payin' attention at all?? JK Anyway, he wants to take his slippers to wear during the movie, so I pack them up. He wants to take his new digital camera (I'll explain that in another post) so I pack that up too. I say he can take pictures of his St. Patrick's Day party in school today. *here is where the dialog starts...

Mommy: You can take some pictures of your friends and teachers during your party today, while you guys are having Shamrock Shakes and hanging out.

Trevor: Oh yeah. But, um, I'm NOT GOING TO SCHOOL TODAY!!! I told you already, I WANNA STAY HOME!! I want a day off!!! And, plus, I'm TIRED!!!
**all caps are him yelling at me... wonder where he gets that from??**

Mommy: Yes, you are going. And please stop yelling at me. I'm not yelling at you. Am I? I'm talking nice, but if you don't get up off the couch turn off the Wii and get dressed for me, I'm going to start yelling.... please lets go!

Trevor: Well I WANNA YELL BECAUSE I DO NOT WANNA GO TO. SCHOOOOOOOL!! And, you aren't even LISTENING TO ME!!!! I wanna play the Wii and just stay home today!!

Mommy: *turned off the Wii* It is time to get up and get dressed, lets go. I'm loosing my patients and I really don't want to yell this morning, I know you want to stay home to play the Wii, but it will be here when you get home and you can play it then, IF you get ready NOW! Please, lets go.

Trevor: *stomping his feet all the way to the bathroom, with a horrible mean look on his face, pees and comes out to get dressed* GET ME DRESSED! .........(grumbles under breath) please.

Mommy: I'm not sending you to school to be mean, you'll have a good day! You'll have fun. I packed you slippers and your camera... you're all set, and when you get home, if you had a good day in school, you can play the Wii. And, I'm driving you in and I'll pick you up too, so it will be a quicker day for you.

***This is the key "quote" here that will be remembered for a while... ****

Trevor: *still with miserable face on.* I HATE YOU MOMMY! I DON'T WANNA GO TO SCHOOL! YOU AREN'T EVEN A GOOD MOM!!! I WANNA STAY HOME AND YOU WON'T EVEN LET ME!!

Mommy: *broken hearted and a little bit pissed off for the mean words coming from my son's mouth!!* Please stop yelling at me first of all. Second of all, I love you and even though I'm not a good mom, you are still going to school so lets get your shoes and coat on. And, you are my favorite son, so please stop being so mean.

Trevor: *still grumpy, but calming down some* Mommy, Stop saying that! I'm mad at you!!!

I get him and the girls all bundled up and out the door we go.
I buckle them all in, and we are off... no one is really saying much.
We get to the school...

Mommy: Here we are. Trevor say goodbye to the girls.

Trevor: Bye girls, Trevor will be home soon, he is only going to school. Okay babies? I'll be back soon.

Mommy: *as I take him out of the truck and put his book bag on him* Have a great day. I'll see you in a little bit to pick you up. *we start to walk into the school ~ I only walk him in the door, while the truck is right outside the door, I don't leave the girls in the parking lot or anything, I can see the truck the entire time*

Trevor: *walking right along pretty happy* Alright, I'm going to have a green day!

Mommy: Okay, try your best, and have fun. I'll see you later and then you can show me your pictures that you took today. I love you! *kiss him goodbye*

Trevor: *kisses me back* I love you too Mommy! Have a good day. *walks down hallway like a big boy and goes into classroom*

Gotta love em'! :)

THE BEST!!

I just posted my 300th post in the post below this one... and I had some great quotes in there, not even all my favorites, just some I wanted to share today. I have more... but I just thought I would share with all of you the BEST quote I've ever heard!!

The scene:

We just pulled in the driveway from picking Trevor up from school. He had a great day and was in a good mood. I had to yell at him and the girls because they were running way ahead of me in on the sidewalk and it is where cars pull in and out of the school parking lot. I said to stop a few times and then finally had to yell pretty loud. They all stopped and I went through the whole shpeel of having to listen to me and stay by me when we are in the parking lot... yadda yadda yadda. I wasn't even yelling, just talking at that point.
Well Trevor started crying. He didn't like that I yelled at him because he is trying to be a good boy. And I just yelled at him really loud.
That broke my heart. I felt bad, but at the same time I really need for them to listen to me when we are in the parking lot or any parking lot for that matter. So I said I was sorry he was upset, but he had to listen to me in the parking lot and set a good example of staying with me so the girls would learn how to act in the parking lot.

We had a quiet ride home, it is only a few minutes from the school to our house... so that was okay. We get home, and I open the door to let Trevor out of his seat and he says to me...

Trevor: Mommy I still love you, every day. All the time I love you. Even when you are mean and yelling at me.

Mommy: Well I love you all the time too. And I only yelled because I was worried you would run into the road or something and get hurt, I only did it for your own safety because I care about you and love you.

Trevor: Well what about all the other times you yell? That is okay too right, because you are just yelling because you love me, right??

Mommy: *feeling a little like shit* Well sometimes mommy yells just because I'm frustrated or angry, but no matter what I always love you.

Trevor: *and here is the BEST quote ever!* I love you always. Every minute. Every day. Every night. Always. I love you to the moon and back, and even when you are being mean yelling. I love you because it is for your own safety.

Now how can you ever top that???? He loves me! He really really loves me!! Yay!! And I love him too!! Always and forever... every minute, every hour, every day and every night. for the rest of my life and his I will always love and cherish that little boy!! :) ~ and Lauren and Brooke too, of course!! They mean the world to me just as much as Trevor does. It amazes me how people ask if you have a favorite or love one more... there is NO way to do that... your heart just opens right up and sucks them all in ... and they fill it up equally!! Sometimes I love them all so much that my heart hurts... but in a good way.

Surprise!

yeah.

yep.

it is really me.

i'm not sure if any one is or has been checking here to see something new... if so, i'm sorry i have been absent for so long... i'm not going to get into details about why i was gone, but it was just pretty much life. you know... kids, family, household, pets, trying to make a dollar or two, KIDS, house work, and so on...

so here i am. i have nothing to say. i am having a freakin' hectic shitty snowy day... but i'm trying to manage. it hasn't been this way all day... well the snow part it has been almost all morning, but that isn't even the worse part... and really i guess my day isn't so bad, just that right now things aren't going so great and i wish i could just close my eyes and when i opened them everything would be fixed... but if that happened what the hell would i blog/bitch/talk/complain/think/ponder/procrastinate do??? so i guess after i type this... i'll finish putting laundry away in my room, and throw some wash in the dryer and the washing machine and then pick up all the damn dog food that the dog thinks is a good idea to dump all over the floor and the kids love to track every where... then i will for the millionth time today try to figure out what the hell is making lauren soooooo cranky today, then i will again explain to my children that they cannot touch whatever they want to touch in the house, just b/c they want to touch it... like the computer and the temp controls in the fridge that they had turned OFF the other day, and yeah we did realize they did this... when our freezer was leaking water out of it... GREAT. i know. then i will clean up some other messes that i have already cleaned today a few times, and get a few, like 10 or 12 more annoying calls from Online Ed... WTF???!!! STOP CALLING ME!!! i said i did NOT want to be contacted... i have answered and said not to call back and i have answered and hung up, i've let my 2 year old daughters answer and talk.... LEAVE ME ALONE!!!!!!!!!!!!

yeah. so this is it... sorry. i know you may have been expecting more from me since i haven't been around... but this is pretty much all i got.

maybe if i make it, if i happen to survive till nap time, then i will be back with something more to say... or at least something more pleasant to say. we'll see. right now i have to get the girls down from the top of their crib railing b/c they are messing with the blinds... AGAIN!!!

have a happy day!!