~Thursday Thirteen~

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~Thursday Thirteen~

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13 things about this morning...

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1. Trevor woke up first this morning, out of everyone in the house...

even without the use of his alarm clock.

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2. I packed, Pringles, mini cookies, crackers & cheese, peanuts, fruit snacks, Cheese It's, Capri Sun juice, Lunchable's Jr ~ ham & cheese, peanut butter & jelly sandwich and a napkin all into one little Incredible Hulk lunch bag.

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3. Got dressed before 10 AM without actually having to leave the house to go any where, for the first time all summer. ( I think )

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4. Got Trevor dressed fully in only a matter of minutes, without any complaints.

(from either of us (= )

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5. Bryan stayed home later than normal before leaving for work.

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6. Lauren and Brooke put their shoes on, immediately after going to the potty this morning.

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7. I brushed Trevor's hair today... not something we usually do around here, and it was in the morning, none the less.

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8. The kids all put on chapstick. (something the girls LOVE to do, but Trevor isn't always so fond of, but he did it like a champ this morning)

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9. Charged up the camera and took some pictures of Trevor lounging on the couch all dressed up.

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10. We all walked out the driveway together this morning, one big ole' happy family of five.

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11. We all stood together at the end of the driveway... waiting.

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12. Grandma came to our house this morning too, to wait with us at the end of the driveway...

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13. Trevor got on the bus... for his first day of KINDERGARTEN!!

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~ Wow. I can't believe that my little boy is already on his way to start his academic years. This isn't the first time he was loaded up on the bus and taken off to school, but this is the first time he is starting KINDERGARTEN... and this came so quickly... that I can't imagine how fast the rest of school years will come. I always say that time has gone by in a blink... but I really mean that time has gone by so fast. I wish some times it would just slow down long enough to enjoy more of this great little person my son is. He has always been wonderful, of course, but he is changing every day. Getting taller, smarter, stronger... more grown up. The house is already quieter without him here today. And I already miss him terribly... and hope that he is doing okay. I'm sure my worrying is in vein, but still I worry.

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~Bryan just called me to see how our day was going so far... to see if things were easier here with one less child... and I guess maybe they are a little easier... but that isn't what I noticed first... what I noticed first is that it is quieter, too quiet... no little boy bike noises or laughter... and it is one less seat filled at the table for breakfast, one less little warm spot on the couch from where a little tushy was sitting to watch morning cartoons. One less.

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~I'm not missing him to the point of crying... but just really thinking of him and wondering how things are going for him this morning. It's his first day and he is all alone. He doesn't have his Mommy or Daddy there to hold his hand and walk him to his classroom, he has to ask someone else how to get there. :( That sort of breaks my heart.... I should have driven him to school, but he wanted to take the bus. I'm sure he will find his way, I'm sure the school is prepared to help all the kids to their classes, especially the younger ones and kindergartners. I just worry. I know when I was 4-almost-5 I would have been upset to feel lost and not know who to ask where I could find my class... but Trevor is different. He is braver, more outgoing and not really shy at all and confident, I know that he will be fine.

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~ By now, he is in his classroom (I'm hoping... because that means that he isn't lost), they have said the pledge of allegiance, and heard the morning announcements... and are I guess, maybe, trying to meet everyone and meet their teacher and their aid, and all that... get used to the classroom and where everything is and how some things will go.

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~ Sometime today he will also go eat in the cafeteria for the first time ever. I'm sort of nervous about this also... will they pay attention to him and what he is doing and if he eats enough or eats at all. Also, I'm concerned about if he can open everything himself or if he'll need some help. I'm sure that since they are little kindergartners, they have some one watching over them to make sure all these things go smoothly and again that I'm worrying for no reason... but still I'm his mom, I'm supposed to worry.

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~ Well Lauren & Brooke have out about 20+ books for me to read to them, so while it is nice and quiet here and they are interested I'm going to go read them a few books, we'll see how many we actually get through. ;)

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*If I have some time later I will give an update of how Trevor's FIRST day went.

Is It Wrong???

Is is wrong to think and worry that every. single. person. may do harm to your children? I said may. I'm not accusing the entire world of being pedophiles or anything like that. But, seriously I get the most uneasy feeling when certain people are near my children or playing with my children.

It cannot be that all these people really have issues, can it?? It must be me. But, I can't take that chance. What sucks is that I get it a lot. "it" being the feeling that someone is being too friendly with my children, or they just creep me out in some way, and then that is it. I no longer trust them what-so-ever with my children. I don't want them to play with them, touch them in any manner, talk to them, or be in the same area as them.

This can cause some awkwardness because I'm not shy about these feelings. I usually don't come right out and tell the person what I think of them, well not yet at least. BUT I will NOT leave my children alone with them for even a split second, I make sure that I deter my children from playing with them or near them, I don't usually communicate with them much after I get that feeling. The reason I'm so passionate about it and that I really don't care who notices or knows my feelings is because I cannot and will NOT take the chance of someone doing something to my children. I couldn't image what that would be like for them, and I refuse to take any chances with it.

Just now, the kids were outside playing so nicely on the swing set... they were all in the bottom in the "club house" part... having a really nice time, and getting along so well. the girls are in their undies, b/c they were in the kiddy pool and Trevor is fully dressed, shirt and shorts. I know they were playing so nicely b/c I was outside taking laundry off the line and putting another load out. I usually allow them to be outside even if I'm not going to stay out there because I'm in and out and CONSTANTLY checking on them, and they don't usually stay out there too long with out someone coming in for a drink, potty, to see what I'm doing, to have me come watch some trick they can do, or to tattle. ONLY this time there is someone weed whacking by the horse pasture, which is the neighboring property to us. I don't know who it is, and I really don't care, but I just had a feeling like this person could maybe take one of my children or lure all three of them off with him... so that was that... I made them all come in the house... until I can go back out with them. They were hot and sandy so they were pretty happy to come inside and have some ice tea and popcorn anyway...

But do you all think there is something wrong with me?? OR is this normal parent behavior. Please be honest.

* this goes a lot deeper with my thoughts and fears for my children, but it would take way to long to type it all out... especially for today... maybe another day I will go deeper with it.